I Knew You Were Trouble

Whoaaa.. Tense week. 

Next week is end of posting exam, yet I'm not finish with my case write-ups. Trouble, trouble, trouble.

In addition to THAT, there's a conflict between seniors and us. Am not sure whether it's misunderstanding or what, but heck! How did I get involved? There have been reports on how badly we've (us, juniors) been towards staffs and act in hospital. I am not saying that I did nothing wrong. Yeah, sure I did came late to class (to be exact, not class but rounds actually). Once or twice. But I do not, miss any of the class (well except for one when I got bad bad bad menstrual cramps that I had to skip the afternoon class, but hey I did came for morning session). To say that we're rude towards staffs... I can't blame others without knowing exactly WHO did that and the case scenario of it. I admit it HURTS my feeling that the staffs feel that we're rude towards them. I mean I'm not hurt because of the staffs, just if IT IS TRUE that there is someone among our batch behaving badly towards staffs; all I can say is "WTF ARE YOU THINKING?!, I MEAN HOW CAN YOU BE RUDE, LIKE HOWWWW? AND HOW CAN YOU BEHAVING SOOO BAD THAT IT HURTS THE STAFF. YOU'RE JERK. WAKE UP" 

I can't imagine someone did that because I myself takut nak bercakap with any of the staffs. Because I'm afraid that I might annoyed them, and I might look stupid (yes, typical Malaysian).

Stress juga think about this and it made me to reflect myself. "Do I? Did I hurt anyone?"

In sha Allah, nope. If there is, I have no intention and pardon me since I did not realized I was behaving like a jerk.

Anyway, next week boleh balik! Yay!

I found my words of wisdom "Hakuna Matata Madafaka"

I Want A Break!

From study ofcourse!

I am so jealous with my family as they're currently on holiday! I'm stuck here with pile of works and things to study, yet I'm wasting my time writing this! Why I keep on putting exclamation mark?! Again?!

I'll just stop here eventho' I've so much to write here.

Don't Upset My Lil Bro

or suffer the consequences! 

Boboyot (eventho' dia dah kurus, I still call him boboyot or boboy) asked his sister (my sister) "Akak, kalau murtabak cube cube berapa kalori dia?"

"splohh..", Akak replied with stoic face.

"Oh yeah? Yayy!" he ate about 5 cubes of murtabak.

Minutes later...

Hahahahaha my sister got tagged on his post. He found out from Uncle Google that one cube of murtabak is around 50kcal, instead of 10kcal. He was pissed! He even calculated and said "Akak! Dah 250kcal orang makan! Murtabak je.. " He was about to cried and memang merajuk with my sister.

If a boy can be like this, I wonder macam mana la about other boys yang dah besar; how they acted when they were little. When you said about other boys (now guys) ofcourse you'll start thinking about those special ones or special one. Teeehee.

Are they sweet like candy, innocent like angel. Or are they devilish, annoying kid? Or are they like my lil bro,  who is SANGAT MANJA, but act MACHO in public and friend.

Somebody must be thinking about their's. Hahahaha. I think mine is this quiet, nerdy good boy. Or maybe he was badass when he was little. XD

Currently I'm head over heels with Bruno's new album. It's awesome! The lyrics can be explicit but still the songs memang sweet. Can I combine Bruno's voice with Rome's (from Sublime) voice. Both have this husky voice. Better yet, lets add Dong Woon into the equation. Weheee.

Back to work. 

You've tried

Congrats to my friends yang baru je finished their intervention day. Whether the outcome is good or bad, atleast it is off your shoulder. Focus on your next objectives y'all!

For intervention day nih, my job as usual is be the photographer. I just took pictures and videos for them. I didn't edit or filter any picture for them sebab that will be time consuming (sorry guys, my progress with case write ups is slow). If I have the time I would help them as much as I can with the pictures and video editing.

Oh, semalam my friends and I dapat tengok twin delivery. Both are boys and the delivery was quick! I mean, I thought it would be macam havoc (it is actually) but MO incharge together with staff nurses there are efficient (congrats y'all!).

Patient admit into LR around 11 pm, and we decided that we should wait for the delivery. So we bought nescafe and my friend is so lucky to have this warm can of 100+. Wait, it is not warm at all... IT'S HOT!

Like hot HOT. If you have an aluminium bottle with you, you can just pour 80 degree C water into that bottle.

By the way, from what I learned from yesterday OC is knowledge may become nothing (not useless tho') at all if you don't have or get the experience. There's a janitor there that know stuff more than us student, she know the flow and steps taken once patient is admitted into LR. Sebab the staff nurse told us to manage that patient first while they took care of other first. So we did the basic thing la, told the patient to take urine sample, weight her and ingatkan nak ambil BP, but then the staff take over.

Another thing is, whenever you have people yang lagi atas than you in working environment, they play an important role setting up the working vibe. I see that there's one senior staff, probably sister; dia macam happy go lucky and very optimistic. So everyone pun happy go lucky, optimistic and most patients delivered fast with no complication. Not like another one from previous OC that I went, that senior staff macam bising bising sikit eventho' dia tak marah but she was being sarcastic and everyone macam follow je dia. Patient become less cooperative and tak pasal-pasal delivery process is prolonged.

Happy birthday

Dear Mum, happy birthday! 

Our awesome present is...

Us lah! We adik beradik kan awesome. Muahahahaha. That's hardcore true fact.

Still we cannot beat the brilliant mind of you and dad.

I'm telling you, my mum can jadi doctor if she wants to (She have 9 children, I bet she can be great O&G specialist) Tapi her ambition really about nak belajar oversea je.

She told me masa interview with JPA during her time, the officer asked her "What course do you want?"

She answered "Sir, you give me any course as long as I can study abroad."

"Then, if we offer you Electrical Engineering, would you accept it?" 

"Can you manage it?" they asked.

"Ofcourse sir," she replied macam confident gila.

Then, she got accepted into Nottingham. Once, tengok her pictures during her time dekat sana. She didn't take any picture dekat faculty dia, instead my mum and my grandparents took a picture depan faculty of medicine (Funny story: My cousin yang tengah study medicine too, same age as me took a picture depan faculty of engineering, Nottingham U). Oh, my grandparents dulu guru besar. Guru besar kahwin with another guru besar. Hahahaha. Tapi, they sekali je la datang lawat my mum there sebab masa tuh my mum is about to get married to my dad.

Their love story sangat sweet. (FYI, my dad is younger than my mum by 13 days apart, heeee)

My mum and dad dulu SBP sama-sama. They were in the same class masa form 4 and 5. I don't remember much, but masa form 4 either my dad or mum yang ketua kelas, and the other penolong. Form 5, vice versa. Masa tuh they said diorang memang tak friendly pun. Takde pun "teman tapi mesra" or kawan. They were just classmate. Period.

Plus they even compete each other for first place in class. Either mum or dad yang dapat first place in every exam. =.= Diorang punya anak tak macam nih pun. Me lagi la, pernah dapat tempat ke 2 for first time and that is the last time.

Anyway, back to the story. My mum studied dekat Nottingham and my dad study dekat...... 

No it is not Nottingham, instead it was Birmingham. Heeee. They were roughly 75 km away.

They all tak tahu pun they both study dekat UK. Hahahaha. I'm not sure how they met. Maybe masa Malaysian students gather during festive season kot.

So after they realized that both of them study in the same country, they keep in touch. My dad tulis surat to my mum (if you see my dad, you wouldn't believe my dad did that. okay to help you, imagine me writing love letter to eheem.. anyone.) Suweeeiittt! Long distance relationship.

I can't remember how my dad proposed my mum masa dekat sana. But I know that my dad ask my grandpa masa diorang balik Malaysia for semester break. My dad told me "Oh abah tahu atok memang guru besar yang garang. Masa jumpa, abah nampak ada sorang pakcik tengah basuh kereta. Dekat halaman rumah ada sorang budak kecik (that's my abang saudara) tengah main main. Abah bagi salam. And the story unfolds itself"

They can get married masa dekat Malaysia kan? But tak boleh sebab cuti sekejap sahaja. Since my uncle pun study dekat UK (I think dekat York), he look after his sister. Diorang memang best la akhirnya their parents datang. Dah la masa tuh tengah spring. My grandma went head over heels dengan flowers dekat sana. My dad's parents tak dapat datang since they couldn't afford it, so sad :( (okay tengah sedih teringat dekat atok pilah). Diorang picnic after akad nikah. Takde reception pun masa tuh.

After that, they focused on their study. They went back and forth lawat each other. ^^

Few months before my mum graduation day, my mum decided nak lahirkan my bro dekat Malaysia (oh, dia malas nak handle all the paperworks and longstay after delivery) so they balik Malaysia early before graduation day tuh. Hahahaha so that my bro tak la brag kalau birth certificate dia show dia lahir dekat sana. Pfft.

My picture during childhood memang a few because me myself is the photographer. Hahahaha XD

Tra, Aken, Aan (Taken by yours truly ofcourse)

(Aken and Tra, adorable la diorang nih, you should see them sekarang. Selalu bergaduh, tsk tsk)

 (ofcourse, they were my subjects kalau camera is in my hand)

(FYI, I was standard 3 and Aken first time masuk tadika. I had to accompany him throughout his class sebab I have school in afternoon session. Oh! Aan looks like Gary!)

(Moi sister. Dia sampai sekarang tak pernah berubah muka)

(My brothers!)

(Aken macam bukan adik kitorang, he's so different sebab mata dia sangat bulat)

(See the difference? His brother mata sepet and he himself mata bulat. Me? Closed eyeeees)

(Joey masa kecil before he start dieting and exercise. Blame my sis and cousins yang suka belanja dia. Float + Secret Recipe, OMG)

Oops, I thought it was

Looks like table tennis. Hahaha. TW read my previous post and went nuts. Sekarang tengah wait for another class, while waiting nampak this one big board behind and I though "Is that tennis board?" But nope, it's not. It is exhibition board rupanya.
They said I should change the blog url. Hmm, any idea?

update: changed the url already. Hmmm, macam so not me hahahaha. Later later la I change if dapat awesome idea.

update 2: why on earth aku tak tulis why I thought above picture was a table tennis board)

TW is currently head over heels with All Time Low and from sources that TW got from Uncle Google, ALT plays table tennis! Huyooo. We also got to know that ALT love shooting [...arrow] (that word is to be said by TW only, thank you.) In the future we can arrange some outdoor activities involving tennis and shooting. I prefer shooting! Yeaaa~! 

Currently dapat idea for my next tweet. Hahahaha. TW sila check the tweet after this.

All Time Low

I know somebody will burst out laughter the moment he or she read this.

Oh by the way, you gotta read this post while listening to All Time Low by The Wanted.

In my story, there is one person that I would like to called as 'The Wanted' (TW) because dia kan hot stuff. Hahahaha I know this will make you happy my friend. TW is crazy shit with the song, 'All Time Low'.

How TW know this 'song' takde la special sangat.

That night (Uuuuuuu) we were on call and tengah observe epi done by HO. Mid procedure he came in and greet his fellow HO yang tengah buat epi and first impression? 

"Ooo, another HO. Hmm, cute ke? His awkwardness la yang cute." (Hahaha, kantoi I judge guy's face first masa 1st impression)

Epi was done and while waiting for another delivery, ada another HO yang ajar us CTG. Then he mencelah and gave us his patient's CTG. We were like ( I mean, I was like) "What thee... is this?" The CTG deceleration (or was it acceleration) susah nak appreciate by us student. Ingatkan dia tahu, but then he himself pun not really sure. Hahahahaha. Cute la bila dia act dia tak sure about that CTG. Okay, he tak la berlagak like he knows everything.

After that he ask whether one of us nak insert branula. But none of us did, semua tak berani lagi. So we just observe first. Later on, he did VE on new-coming patient. From branula insertion till whatever he did masa tuh, TW ikut je. Hahaha. I left because I wanna watch another epi being done.

And then!... here's come the best part. When we were about to leave, he asked if tomorrow (Friday, holiday) we all will be coming again. We said we have class tomorrow morning in KB. Then he said "Oh, I'll be here till 2 p.m.," sambil tengok TW. All of us macam UuuuUUu the 'atmosphere'.

Balik tuh we sakat sakat TW and that time TW macam in denial lagi. Tup tup next day, TW excited when we all decided nak pergi hospital after class (I think TW tak tidur lena that night). We didn't see him in wards or LR, so TW was kinda disappointed eventho' tak tunjuk sangat. So we stopped by the cafeteria before going back home.

o_O He's here.

And he's looking right at us.

Awkward.

For TW je la awkward. We all yang lain nak tergelak je. (by the way, TW might say "..at us? at me je la")

Since that day, TW went crazy. When TW went crazy, there are awkward moments happened sampai I can't bear it sebab malu nyeeeee. I bet he dah fikir "these girls follow me ke?" and that proved to be right.

Why? Well, last OC that TW went, he asked "why, semua signature I?" in the her logbook. Hahahahahaha. TW can't reply to his question sebab mesmerized sangat kot.

Next next day lagi epic. On our way nak balik after class, terserempak with him and we all act macam biasa jalan straight. We thought he will go in opposite direction. TW glanced back, and there you go... masing-masing pandang sesama sendiri. Today, nothing really happen sebab TW tak dapat tengok dia. Sebab tuh, this Friday we have (actually TW insist) our OC.

Everytime both of them terserempak with each other, both will have this "..erk..umm" look.

Same thing goes with me and my crush la. TW and me memang pity la. Since we're still student, tunggu sampai we all become doctor. After that baru same level, and maybe (just maybe) baru ada confidence (kalau ada jodoh to meet again in the future, ada la) and interact macam colleague first sebab student-HO relationship macam forbidden je in hospital environment.

Now I Realized That

It's the 6th semester! OMG

With God's blessing, we will finish this whole 10 yards in no time.

Hahaha, now after a long hiatus I am back with this post. Somebody (yeah, you) actually did read this blog. Memang kantoi la whatever that I wrote in previous post. Itula, share lagi gambar budak russia tuh. Hahahaha.

Currently in O&G posting. My impression? It is interesting, but I can't really grasp on the art of history taking for O&G cases. I know there's no much difference in medicine, but HOPI in O&G is dead serious susah to obtain. It differs from medicine because you have to get full details of chief complaint, ANC, planned management for the patient, as well as patient's progress to treatment. In addition to that, you have to include further management for this patient. Ifu you get the wrong information (e.g investigation result that you get from patient by mouth), memang dead la. My friend get scolded sebab dapat the wrong result for MOGTT. Since you can't refer to patient's ticket, your patient is your database. Problem with that, patient that we clerked macam malas to give the information and told us to get those info from their record. Macam mana la long case nanti...

Today ada lecture regarding IUGR. I am IUGR baby! Mum said she scared to bath me and let my grandma do the job for her. I was so tiny that she can hold me with one hand only. But of course, I catch up later on in life. I have increased risk of hypertension and DM. So, I've made Patrick Stump my idol! Dia pre-diabetic, and he realised he need to shed some weight. He did it! He's cute and chubby during his glorious time with FOB. Now, he's like this cool adorable guy. Member cakap I smiled like him. No, I did not. =.=

Third year and life.

Alhamdulillah dah masuk clinical years. Life memang busy, and I rarely had the time to write and reflect. Now dah masuk 1st of Ramadhan, and too bad I can't fast together with my family and break fast together. Maybe another 2 weeks I'll be back home. IsyaAllah.

Before balik, ada exam. For sure.
This time dah masuk clinical year, the examination is different. Next week ada short case and by the end of this week (I think) kena submit my case write-up. Sekarang tengah key in all the information into Words. Sambil - sambil tengah buat, I noticed that my favourite MO siapkan everything in the patient history.

When I said everything. I mean everything.
The day patient is admitted into the ward, I clerk the patient. Then minutes later, he came. He wants to clerk the patient. He just datang sebelah and smile. Dia nak tunggu me finishing up the history, but I'm sort of overwhelmed and just let him clerk first. But dang! Why I didn't stay and watch him clerk the patient. Atleast, I'll learn something right?

I observed him from 2 beds before the patient's. At that time, my friend kena ada chauffeur in order to do PE, especially male patient; so I accompany her while observing him. ^^

Bila dia dah finished, I came back to the patient and continue clerking. Guess what happen. Coincidence? I don't think so.

I was asking the patient regarding orthopnoea, and then... he came back right after the patient answered the question. He came back, and ask the same exact thing I asked the patient, "How many pillows do you use?". The patient was smiling and looked at me when the MO asked the same question as mine. Okay. That's coincidence perhaps.

Then he left.

I continue clerking and then I ask the patient about his MDI and how often the patient use it. Out of nowhere, he came back. Asking, "How often do you use your inhaler?" Ofcourse, the patient smile and give the MO the same answer he gave me. Is that, a coincidence?

Am not sure.

Next morning, I went to the hospital and look at the copy of the patient's record. Sekarang baru dapat baca, and thank God, it's all there. Thanks to you too, Dr! :)

Why do I say it's all there? Here is the thing. I observed that he usually write summary of his findings. But for this particular patient, he wrote almost everything, and like very teratur (overly organized?). I think he knows that I chose the patient for my case write-up.

Nak habis dah posting internal medicine. Next is community health. I'm gonna miss him. He's like your average joe and tak handsome pun. He's cute! Nerdy in appearance, but once he takes off his glass, awww.. dia ada cute eyes. ^^ Suka observe him doing fundoscopy.^^ He's not clumsy, but his style made him look like one.

Habis la, dulu susah juga nak tidur sebab dia pernah tegur dekat sink (glamournya tempat). Okay, sink sangat banyak dekat ward tuh, and he chose to basuh his hand at the sink yang aku tengah guna. His first line "Dah okay dah?" and I was like "Apa yang okay?" and then he do this cute expression pointing to my hands (Ahh, cair) I replied "Oh... Umm. Okay..... kot." @#$!!@ why did I say "KOT". =.= then he tunggu till i finish rinsing my hand. Ahhh damn.

BTW, nak tau that MO name sangat susah. His name tag asyik terbalik je everytime I want to see his name. Thank God, my friend yang ada sharp eyes and ears help me. Try to find him on facebook, he doesn't have one. Including Twitter. So I googled him. Then :gulp:... his family sangat awesome! And dia sangat low profile. You sir, indeed a cool person and I admire you.

Hopefully I can graduate and be his HO later in the future? ^^
Obviously I have a crush on him. If ada jodoh, adalah. Only God knows.